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This is a dream i had between the hours of midnight at 1 on july 20th. I woke up and felt that it was urgently important that i write the dream down. What follows is my account of the dream from the moments immediately after its conclusion

i’m late on some paperwork. i start cooking some white fish and i was trying to make a pan sauce but i didn’t have any saffron so i turned off the heat and went to the grocery store. i tried to go to their auto-shop self checkout thing but it just gave me a large fountain soda cup of ice water. i gather my groceries and check out and get in a car, then the guy who was waiting behind me to use to automatic grocery thing gets in the passenger seat. he somehow starts driving with a joystick—in the middle of the grocery store. i’m like “hey man do you even know how to drive” and he’s like “don’t worry about it.” he turns around and makes it out the automatic doors and turns right to go downtown, and one of his friends gets in the back. then i realize that i should not be here and i start saying “i don’t think you should be driving” as he continues to maneuver recklessly as his friend advises him. i try to get out of the car but i am unable. i get scared and wake up.

I have been struggling to interpret this for the past two days. It seems to obviously point to a lack of control, and intense anxiety surrounding that. but there are many details that still perplex me. The significance of both food and technology are apparent but indecipherable to me. And the cup of ice water felt so important to me in the moment. I am being kidnapped and driven towards an uncertain future to which i am averse, but largley passive against until it is too late. and from what kind of present? if you have any potential insights into the symbols present here, please contact me with your thoughts.